Use Knowledge

Today I want to talk with myself about what I’ve learn from slacking time in internet. Why slacking? Because I always make an excuse that I’m watching a video to learn somebody else experience. But the truth is that I watch the same type videos again and again, barely learning something new. Instead I don’t even try to apply what I learned.

But let’s come closer to the root of the problem. Why do I watch videos in a first place? Because I enjoy watching how people overcome their problems and I want to learn form it. I want to have the same experience. But by watching and not acting I’ll never learn and the knowledge would be useless, which means the time I spent would be useless. Useless knowledge -> time wasted.

It’s sad.

What I can do instead is to pause videos and act. Yes. Pause until I feel I implemented everything that I want and it’s time to learn something new.

My primary focus right now will be:

    1. Planing for a day
      • 3 main tasks
    2. Year goals
      • Planing for a quarter
      • Planing for a month
      • Planing for a week
    3. Priorities
    4. Invest in index founds
    5. Reading everyday
    6. Saving on everything, being uber frugal
    7. Study for myself
        • Baby steps
        • Choose one thing
        • Make a plan

The hardest task so far is to have goals for a year. I really don’t know what I want. It seems like everyone have a goal in their life and just make a plan how to achieve it and act according. Not me. I don’t know what I want, I just want to live and have enough money to have what I need and want.

Note of today: 2019-04-17

Why am I teasing myself? I look at ads and open each link just to see photo and… for what else? I’ll never buy one for myself, it’s pathetic. But to show what I want. Why? I’m pathetic. I do act pathetically. How can I be string and independent?
Meanwhile I’m not looking forward for tomorrow.

Note of today: 2019-04-15

It was hard today. I did want to run away from this, but I couldn’t. Usually I just turn around and fo, to not face the truth and hardship of the moment. But today I couldn’t, I had to face it, even that I tried.

The other thing that was borhering me for more time is still here. But I didn’t feed the beast todsy, rather I was busy with the first thing.

Note of today: 2019-04-14


I had the same battle in my head this morning. This time one of the worst case scenarios painted my morning sleep with almost tears. So close to cry just from my thoughts. Well played, head, well played.

Working in a garden helped to clean my brain. The body is tired, the garden is clean. There are places for improvements, but one at a time.

I guess tonight my head will be filled with morning thoughts yet again. When will I solve it?